To be honest, I used to complain about the bad situations I got to counter. I would like to say that it was for I felt I had no much capacity for dealing with new problems because some things were still unsolved and I felt drained mentally and emotionally. I think I am just like the other humans with limited strength and patience. I am not a special creature that has a magical touch to change a circumstance to be as I want at a glance. I am just someone who is always trying to see the opportunity and lesson from everything I have to confront. I won’t lie that sometimes it is tiring to be a human with lots of unexpected things that await you. If it’s something good, you might be so happy to wait for another miracle especially when your prayers answer in a good timing. When something turns out to be bad, you only wish it would last for a moment and stop making an unrealistic wish ever since.
I know I should have positive things to tell myself. That is how to keep making myself to seek a positivity in many negativities surround me at the most unexpected time. When I’ve realized that every problem I tackled has brought me to become the better version of myself than who I was in the past that cried over the issues I could break them in the end. I did cry first while trying to find a solution, and that was the old me. The difference of my present self is I am crying and looking for the breakthrough at the same time. I am not as tough as I show to people because crying isn’t a sign of a weakness but that is how I believe that I have an emotion that needs to be expressed than to be restrained. At least, I don’t give up on myself and I don’t harm myself for things that are meant to strengthen me.
The opportunities of every problem I dealt with are firstly to make me have more awareness of who choose to stay with me & those who are there during my highs and lows. I am no longer someone who used to surround myself with lots of people like I was in my teenage where I had no idea what made them liking to be friends with me for my skills in IT and English or they made friends with me because of social status. I was never as vocal as I am about my thoughts and how I see the world from different point of view so I can have more understanding about life and people particularly. The second opportunity of facing a problem is I feel I grow and develop mentally and emotionally. Age doesn’t define your maturity but problems can mature you gradually. I can sense the changes within me and how my parents and siblings treat me like a grown up with more responsibilities for my own choice and decision also they never stop showing supports for what I’m working on.
The last opportunity is the most impressive to me. I can see where my progress and consistency will take me. I’ve been investing my time and energy for something that has failed me and another thing that has surprised me in a way I never expected it could be possible to happen. They can lead me to a good and bad experience in the end. I don’t think I’m the most played in this process of building and reaching my goals. I guess it’s a lifetime game I should do my role properly when some things don’t work correctly. My expectation should be lower than my real situation because that’s how I can pay more attention on the things I can control. I’m not a great person at managing my expectancy but I’m trying to handle myself for whatever I should learn ultimately. Every problem is surely an opportunity to see the good and the bad of everything you’ve been dealing with. No matter what, problem is the best teacher for life.
